Adoration of the Goddess

Feel UGLY

2006-12-19T13:48:00.000-08:00

I feel UGLY right now, I don't think I can survive through x'mas with this face. I have to skip x'mas I guess..... Did I make the right decision? I'm I wrong? God I beg you to SAVE me!

Happy b'day to Goddess

2006-12-06T20:35:00.000-08:00

I hope that the person now I'm with is the RIGHT one.....I really pray HARD..... I wish to be smooth throughout my life on this very day.....

HAPPY B'DAY GODDESS
Thanks those people who gave mi such a SWEET memories.....

D & D

2006-11-26T20:24:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since i have anytings to write about, as my life is really quite boring.....
D&D time....

My first D&D

i reckon...

2006-10-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

Now is 3.50am in the middle of the nite, and I CAN’T SLEEP. I guess I have to many things to brood over. I hate myself for being and doing the disgraceful thing I done to them. I can’t help but feel so futile, toward them I always have a sense of guilt. They brought me to this world and watch me suffer and struggle through all this years of my life and yet they get noting in return. I’m not contribution to the family because I can’t find a job. I’m really very uncertain in why I am not employ. Am I not good enough of any job and I literary mean ANY JOB. Or I have lousy/awful/dreadful/horrible/terrible interview skill. Interview skill is so damn important, it so vital that even if u are tremendously lousy worker and can’t help the company in any other way, but eventually you will still be hire since you have excellent interview skill. And that’s about it... First impression does count massively. The norms will always say to find job that u really like. But to be truthful, how many pple are doing what they really like, pursing what they truly have passion in. It’s more or less for they pay. Can passion or love feed you?
Life just manipulates people. Some pple just are gifted. Some just do not need to work in order to feed themselves. As for me I dread to work but I DON’T have a choice as I need the MONEY to survive. I envy people. I get jealous of people. How they are able to live such a fascinating life just make me wonder…………… I really need a change. The people around me impact the way I feel about humans. I get hurt again and again. It okay in the sense, u get hurt u will learnt. They make mi trust no one. When helps is needed, NO one will be there to help. The only ways of helping yourself is by HELPING YOURSELF. Making me independent and always distrusting people. I sort of like building an invisible wall to block myself from others as I’m so frightened by humans. I’m just the not so luck ones to meet the people I met, but I still strongly believe that there are wonderful people out there. I’m just not lucky enough to meet them. I guess I always have to learn things through the HARD way.

So not nice

2006-09-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

Goddess: Why are you all always there around me, can u all leave me alone?

Sadness: Sorry! No can’t do~ I will always be there to make things worst.

Suffering: No! Why must I go? I am always here. Since when did I leave you before?

Miserable: leave u alone? NO NEVER...

Worries: I can’t and I will not! Sorry!

Troubles: I don’t want to leave you, my dear.

Goddess: I just wanna make friends with happiness, NOT you all. Can all of you don’t bother me anymore? PLEASE I beg all for you to leave me. Have mercy on me.

Sadness: But I don’t want to leave u alone? I always make you sad and that’s my job! And most of all, I love my job.

Suffering: I always inject pain and I in your life, make u suffer and suffer! Hahaha

Miserable: I’ll breed lots and lots of misery in your life.

Goddess: YOU ALL! GO AND DIE

Goddess: KILL YOU ALL…….. Go to hell……

I dun wanna KNOW

2006-08-16T22:59:00.000-07:00

She said my command of English is atrocious
She said when I talk I’m gusting for words
Feel kind of sad and depress
I know I have Terrible ENGLISH
I don’t need you to slap it in my FACE!

so SORRY!

2006-08-06T01:00:00.000-07:00

I’m said something that I should NOT have say today!
I SORRY in what I said today!
GOD please forgives me!

BABE I came across in the BLOG world:

Isst she SEXY? her name is SEXY?

She is super confident (Not say she not pretty la…..)

She is ideally attractive.
People are just jealous of her! So they wanna break her DOWN.

She Possess charm!

so bloody true

2006-07-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

Men Are Hard To Pleased The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him; If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him; If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN; If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE; If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u; If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true!!!)

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him; If u do he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME; If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him. I

f u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (Bullshit)

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED; If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl; If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL; If he HURTS u, u are too ! SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!

God bless girls that are truly HURTS!

ARGH! HELP!

2006-07-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

“I HAD ENOUGH! BYE!”
Childish! Fine…..
Siao! Crazy ass hole
The line should be said by me ok!
I had enough of you that right
You stupidity and your fuck up attitude
I always are surrounded by fuck up guys
Guys that suck to the core
Always spoil my mood
Burn the dick I will
Light the fire! BURN BURN BURN

huh?

2006-07-23T12:53:00.000-07:00

I really ponder to myself
What am I doing?
Why am I wasting my youth?
Why am I doing thing that I should not do?
Why am I always disappointing myself?
Why am I doodling and spending money and not knowing how to earn it?
Do I really need to such a letdown?
Can I be some help to my parent whom bring me there?
God also can’t help me if I can’t help myself!

God bless you

god gived

2006-07-21T14:34:00.000-07:00

Who is the bloody hell say: Money can’t buy you happiness?
Money CAN buy me happiness
Only love yourself
I LOVE MYSELF
I just “sometime” feel ugly
There’s nothing in this world that can make you happy
Only yourself and what make u think can make you happy
What makes me happy is MONEY
With money I can buy anything
Please do not think that I’m shallow
Cause you are NOT me
You do not know what I have been through
YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND
Love just keep hurting me so deeply
Love is nothing to me
MONEY is important
When you got money you rule
If you have found your happiness
I bless you!

GOD BLESS ALL HUMAN

"GOOD" friend

2006-07-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

Why do I have such a fucking “friend”?
Characterize me as “SCHOOL MATE”! I don’t even merely make it to his “Friend-List”!
He also makes sarcastic and mocking REMAKE about ME in front of my friends.
What is he trying to do? Make mi “lost face”?
If I make remark about him, he will SHOOT you till he bloody WIN
He does not LIKE to lost! Or should I say he CANNOT lost
He can do that to people, people can’t do back to him!
HE IS THE KING!............ puke
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When he accidentally smear water or dirt on himself
He would wipe it on me!
WAT THE FUCK?
What fucking attitude is that?
In front of his GUY friend he always FUCKING ACT like the LEADER.
What fucking leader is that?
Puke…… making me more and more disgusted and sickening
He has more of those disgusting and hideous behavior yet to be see
ARGH……….
WOW!...... I’m so LUCKY to have such a “WONDERFUL” so call ‘friend’.

Nowadays, when I looked in the mirror I found out that the person inside the mirror look so hideous!
I feel so ugly!

God bless me
God bless u all

tired!

2006-06-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

Super exhausted, dead beaten and worn-out from the projects and reports
Life is so “meaningful”
They all are cheater!
Puke………..
Go to hell
Doubt: If they go to hell, will I get Karma?
Doubt: Will I get my Retribution?
Wahahahah……

My mum snatch my chocolate!

Eating eating eating…… hmmmm nice!

WTF:
Quarrel with me today over money matter
Goddess say: “Rich people are like that one la”
SEE the ‘meaning’ of friend…..
I think you don’t even need me as a friend
Then forget it
Since you don’t treat me as friend
Let’s separate!
Wahahahahahha……
Don’t have much friend left…..
Sob sob…….

what should i do?

2006-06-24T19:25:00.000-07:00

Eating tons of chocolate just to drew my attention to other things. I can’t shake HIM off my head. What should the goddess do? I’m suffering yet he is fooling around with sluts and bitches. He is just using me when there NO one to play along with him. Why do I always been cheated by guys and yet so bloody dumb enough to believe them. Prince charming riding on the horse has fall down already. SO NO more prince charming fairytales for me!
I’m so fucking stupid
I’m so bloody brainless
Tell you a story:
In this world, there is this kind of man. He is so “funny”. His birthday fall on a Saturday, as one of my friend is celebrating on Wednesday. So he told me he was supposed to be celebrating together with her. Listen carefully, he say “suppose”! WHAT? Celebrate with her for what? As if her friends know you. Her friends don’t even know you lor! My friend doesn’t even have the intention to celebrate with him. Why he can’t celebrate on Friday or Saturday? So bloody funny right? And also like to ask people last minute. LAST MINUTE is really the last minute ok! It like 7pm in the evening already yet still ask you: “wanna go out?” HATE this kind of last of the last minute "thingy". Afternoon asking you out in the evening still can accept.

In this world, there are truly a lot of weird people.

Msn on throughout the entire day, yet no one came forward to chat with me! Damn boring. They really do hate me so much?
Man are cheater, they LOVE to cheat me! And I don’t really get it, why are they fond of cheating me only?

crazy ass

2006-06-24T04:30:00.000-07:00

Friday, June 23, 2006 Night

Splurge money with baby queen again
Splurge money to buy “necessary” things
We are two crazy asses!
Baby Queen is possessed today
I’m scare
COME OUT! COME OUT!

crazy woman!

hp! bidding! start from 1 million.....

Told you she is possessed liao!

He sucks!
I HATE HIM
My whole head is full with him
Argh…………..
CANNOT!
Cos there will be NO happiness
I death meat!
NOW! Are you HAPPY now?
God will save the goddess

pain pain

2006-06-22T22:14:00.000-07:00

爱上了不该爱的人, 我的心好痛好痛
You make me love you
And yet you make me hate u so much
What are you trying to do now?
I was hurt by you again and again
Women are stupid animal
I truly have to say that “I’m stupid”
You make me look like a clown
You make me hate myself
Although I know you sucks to the core
BUT I so tempted
Slap myself

Yesterday was my friend b’day
I wanted to go
But no one willing to company me
Why do friends dislike me?
What did I do wrong?
I guess I’m sticking to baby queen?
But she don’t wan me

God help mi!
I pray to you!

Monday Night

2006-06-19T10:12:00.000-07:00

Yeah pee….
When out on Saturday
When out on Sunday
When out on Monday
But Sunday when out with queen baby!
With her, only spent Money! wahahhaha………….
We spent a lot a lot! And who CARE
We are spending our OWN MONEY!
She is crazy and insane
Not like me! I’m mature and THRIFTY!

He is a pain in my ass
He is a shitty man
He ask me to go out, yet he was out with sluts and bitches
He SUCKS!
He is so bloody stubborn
Both of them suck to the core!
PUKE……………………..
They eat their own SHIT
Wahahahhaah......

non verbal

2006-06-17T02:06:00.000-07:00

I crave for the love I long to have
For the love I been waiting for so long
Desire for the passion ahead
You hav been gone

boo hoo

2006-06-16T00:03:00.000-07:00

Why do I always meet guy that suck BIG BIG time?
Where are all the superior fine guys gone to?
Yesterday I had a conversation with one of my friend

Goddess: “Your restaurant there got handsome guys anot?”
Friend: “Don’t have la! all quite rich only la!"
Goddess: “ RICH! Good good! Not handsome never mind! Not handsome, so must be Rich! If handsome I dun mind ‘throwing’ money on him! Whahahahah!"
Friend: “HUH??????????”
Goddess: “ If not handsome, must be rich! If handsome willing to throw MONEY on him!”

I saw my crush in school yesterday! he is so damn CUTE! we look at each other!
But noting happen! why? why? sob sob!
what Queen baby said yesterday was very very true...
when you have bf, do not mean u keep letting people know
And put all those couple couple picture and put in friendster to let people jealous

life i lead

2006-06-11T08:33:00.000-07:00

After finish my exam and stupid music journey assignment, I was lead to a 2 week break!
Two bloody long tedious weeks neh...
BORE to death time.....
Friday I found out that my 富先生 stay near my area…
Maybe he move house? Maybe he stays at his friend’s house?
Arh…. Bloody happy and excited…

BUT

I CAN’T have him…..
Wish all this crappy stuff faster finish
And I can throw all this shitty thing and shitty people AWAY
I wanna do tons of stuff after all this thing ENDED
By the time, when I am successful and attractive
ALL those fucking MAN will be like crawling to me
Begging me to accept them!
pukeeeeeeeee......................... fuck off.................

I swear to myself.

I the goddess, must be extremely successful and tremendously gorgeous WOMAN

That’s is how the goddess wanna lead her life
Earning tones of money by myself, spending it on MYSELF and my FAMILY
Anyway in my life, I didn't even get to spent any man MONEY!
Oppsss…. I'm spending my DADDY money now.....Sorry daddy…
Will repay THEM!

HE

2006-05-24T04:12:00.000-07:00

He toss you away when you say you MISS him
He makes you go gugu gaga over him when he did what you like
He treats you like shit when you need him
He gets bloody annoy when you ask him to say: I LOVE YOU
He will not make the first move, even he think he should
He thinks that you are nothing when he got a slut beside
He makes you fall deeply for him when he stares in your eyes
All the fuck he did
He just wanna make u crazy
That’s what he is good at
He will make girls suffer
BEWARE!

Goddess has a bunch of supporter
Goddess go! Goddess go!
GO GO GO!

saturday night

2006-05-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

Friday I was sick
Sms me to ask me out right
But I told that person I’m sick
Guess what that person reply?
That person reply: oh never mind!
Huh…. What the fuck?
I say I’m sick but not a single concern about whether I dying or not!
What you care about is just someone to company you
Cause you are just lonely without her
What am I to you? i just NOTHING!
MAKE USE!
Friends please don’t make use of me!
I get enough of your shit
God please make them happy
The goddess is very mercy
Why are they always there to make mi suffer?
Why do i always need to cry because of those fucker?
Is this never ending
I NEED to put a full stop
The goddess need to THROW this entire group of fucker away!
The handphone is usless to the goddess
Anyway there nobody out there who really needed me
Those whom i needed are already there
I treasure them as they are my only hope

Saturday I wasted it at home
HOME! I love my home
I don't feel the same way as i used to feel
It like i die my business, it none of anyone business!
human are selfish animal
who only think of themselve

I NEED A DRAMATIC CHANGE TO MY LIFE !

God will help The Goddess
I know that
Pray to God
God will answer my pray one day
And bring good news to me

watever

2006-05-19T19:41:00.000-07:00

You can’t really hate the person for long, I must learnt to forgive the person
Goddess is mercy toward human being
I’m waiting for nothing to happen, and that so bloody funny
But I’m still waiting for that “Nothing”! I’m stupid!
Human are so selfish and greedy
Why I’m I so unhappy about life?
I should be happy and content about life
BECAUSE I’M THE GODDESS

silly goddess

2006-05-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

He wear Spectacles today!
i love it when he wore those spectacles
looking into his eyes make mi go gugu gaga
but he is a fucker
how can i go crazy over him?
I CANNOT!

I got teenage mutant ninja turtle
haha u dun have!
see

wahaha

2006-05-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

My friend "got" the bird shit today!
she gonna win the lottery
I'm Winning the lottery too
Eat eat eat eat eat! My past time!

not so angry after all

2006-05-12T21:19:00.000-07:00

Guy sucks!... guy suck suck! Throw shit on their FACE!..... arh….
Angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry

Beat Bang Pound Punch Hit Hammer Smack Spank Whack Slap

After some letting out, I feel that they are just a tiny mini problem in my life! There is other more important thing in my life! They can jolly well fuck off! Yeah!

Never knew that RALPH LAUREN can product hot hot hot fragrance! Smell so fantastic, I feel like I’m in love with the world, even thought I hated the world. Its just make mi feel seductive!.... its on my “MUST BUY” list! Not a single doubt about it.

Acceptance?

2006-05-11T08:35:00.000-07:00

I CAN’T accept someone who is uglier then me. OMG!... I know I know…. I’m NOT that pretty anyway. That why I’m trying all means and ways to be “The Beautiful” one. I sick of being hideous or whatever. I don’t want to be counted to be “The Unattractive” to the society. I desperately WANT to be accepted as the gorgeous one. In this world nothing is impossible. With money I can do anything with my looks. I will try my VERY best to be acknowledge as attractive Woman. And try to gain my confident. Oh yah… back to the “can’t accept someone to be uglier then me”, sound a bit selfish and cruel to some extend. I know I should not be having this stupid “ideal”. But hey….. What define ugly or pretty? Different people have different opinion of the definition. What seen charming might not seen the same to different people. I think I’m corrupt by the media and mass. They truly play a part in corrupt human mind. Still to say, I’m already corrupted.
Lots of people said that charming people are only a covering what really matter is the soul that makes that person. Do you really believe so? Looks still play a major part in this malicious world. All parts of life. I can carry on and on with my one sided view, but hey that is only what I think.

unfaithful

2006-05-04T05:07:00.000-07:00

I can be unfaithful!
I love u, but i like being with OTHER guys!

Smell violent ?

2006-05-02T18:06:00.000-07:00

Today blog will contain abit of violence! not suitable for young children.

I shall start NOW:

YOU are a fucking bastard...

Ya Ya!... ask you do project u like so fucking restless! don't want to do you can bloody GO HOME! who needs you anyway! GYM everyday! Gym gym gym! In your life there only gym! You can fucking go do your gym and train your stupid triceps la, biceps la, quadriceps la, transversus abdominis la, and all your fucking ceps ceps la! Train till so big for FUCK? waste time! Train till so big size just to cheat and fuck girls. I know u understand that you are UGLY so you need to train to look more appealing to girls right. Train till so big size got nothing to do with you fucking with girls ok! you love to fuck girls and that's a FACT! you really are an ass! Fucking only need your "P----"! If you are so clever, train your "P----" la! See if your "P----" can take those stupid dumbbell a not! Wahahahahahaha...... Please look at yourself before you comment on girls looks ok! Girls see you just because you are so FUCKING big size ok! NOT because you are handsome or whatever shit! So fucking UNproportionally big size makes you stand out and not because of your looks! If one day will to ask you to fight, I think you will fell down as you are too UNPROPORTIONALLY unstable.

light off ????

2006-04-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

When the light is off
my face look fine in the mirror

When the light is ON
my face look so............... in the mirror
(don't dare to describe)

April 18

2006-04-18T03:07:00.000-07:00

Rain rain come again today
The sky is dark from the moment i woke up
The sky reflected my mood today
I so fucking "beautiful"
Hypnotize the Goddess:
I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful
I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful
I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful I am beautiful

hairy situation

2006-04-16T21:48:00.000-07:00

That's a funny pic of my bloody self. Miss E wanted mi to put in my blog!

I don't need your bloody fucking comments! So bloody Please SHUT UP!

STOP telling me inner beauty is more important dat outer beauty!
That is all CRAP and NONSENSE!
Outer beauty is always MORE important that anyting else........

y i wanna b pretty

2006-04-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

I was queuing to buy juice at this juice station, the lady queuing in front of me was quite PRETTY.

So her drink was serve to her with a plastic bag and a straw placed
NICELY inside the plastic bag by the guy who served her.

she didn't even asked for straw and bag

When its my TURN, I was only served with the BLOODY DRINK
only, NO PLASTIC bag NO STRAW.

The plastic bag, I HAVE TO ASK from the bloody fucker, STRAW I have to take myself.

See the different how human treat PRETTY and the None PRETTY ones

sick person

2006-04-12T01:49:00.000-07:00

I'm sick BUT i still eat ice-cream... yummy yummy

I wanna be pretty

make mi pretty

idiots

2006-04-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

SUPER SIAN:

- going back to see bloody fucking idiots retarded people AGAIN
- life so empty
- not enough money
- not pretty (i wanna b super PRETTY)
- no life
- i'm sick today CANNOT go OUT!

hard?

2006-04-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

Is it so HARD to be that someone?

Bustard Bastard

2006-03-30T01:01:00.000-08:00

I saw a Bastard today!
bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard bloody bastard

the ugly side

2006-03-13T18:34:00.000-08:00

U see U see..... wat the fuck tis pple is thinking......
so dats the reason Y i hate public transport
Public Transport:
-actually u were early, but waiting for the fucking bus make u late
-after one whole day of bloody standing in work, the mrt is full of bloody people
-the people inside public transport is so bloody retard

evil / good

2006-03-05T06:40:00.000-08:00

evil people fuck off
good people stay beside
evil people go hell
good people stay in happy land

obscene accumulation

2006-02-24T08:23:00.000-08:00

when love is blind
it seem so wrong
u better die
let celebrate f**king up side down life
celebrate the joy
celebrate the suffering
memories of you make mi sick
hate your obnoxious laughter
hate your sickening eyes
hate your disgusting voice
nothing can turn back
everything is moving

hairy hairy

2006-02-21T18:30:00.000-08:00

Curly hair! nice? Nice!
plz dun let mi suffer again!
i MUST stay away from U!

finishing SOON!

2006-02-16T20:07:00.000-08:00

This is my previous desktop background in school.

This is my recently desktop background in school!

School ending Soon! yeah!
PS: don't trust the person if u already don't trust the person

Crying in my own world!
No help
Lost without hope
Hang on
U will get noting instead

Frustrated life

2006-02-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

It's lonely sometimes in the fastlane
People come and go like rain
And I look around for a hand to hold
There's no one here today
Everyone has gone away
And left me in the fray
So don't wish upon a star
Cuz a star can only get you so far
And it doesn't matter who you are
Cuz the sky looks better from the ground anyways
You never know what you've got
And even if you do it doesn't mean I'm gonna stay
Tommorow is another day
You only live once and I'm living for today
I'm living for today
So I drive around the superficial town
With a smile on my face
No one really knows how I feel inside
And I'm keeping it that way
It's my story to replay
And the fastlanes where I wanna stay
So don't wish upon a star
Cuz it's dark and lonely get you so far
And it doesn't matter who you are
Cuz the sky looks better from the ground anyways
I can't find my sanity
I'm about to lose my mind
And I can't find myself well I want to lose my mind
And if only I can show 'em that nobody's gonna bring me
I'm gonna stay
Tommorow is another day
You only live once and I'm living for TODAY

noting to do wit life

2006-02-10T09:30:00.000-08:00

"lucky" day today:
1- almost late for sch
2- home key almost forget to take
3- MP3 drop in the drain
4- run like mad to sch

Can really do noting about tis bloody life!
No money to enjoy
no money to change the present situtation
no ears to listen to mi

Well...... tis is my life given! Just live it!............

F*** off

2006-02-01T03:36:00.000-08:00

When i have problem who help?
None
When i need help and asked u for help what u reply mi?
Dun bother mi wit such SMALL matter

Part A
Fine! ok that from today onward i will not bother u anymore!
U can jolly well find all your other friends
From the start, i admit i'm such a f**king bitch to disture u
I will not be a bitch anymore
My world now is without U now

Part B
U say u *toot* mi
I think is i tink too much
But u dun give a damn about me
What am i to u?
i am just a shit dat u play around with
When u ar alone, u find mi
When u have friends, u f**k mi off

I have enough of all this crap from different person!
STOP TREATING ME LIKE SHIT!
Thanks!

New Year Res·o·lu·tion

2006-01-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

1) Slimmer Body
- So I can be thin thin and not fat fat! like fatty bom bom! to be 35Kg
2) Talk properly
3) Walk properly
- I have walking disorder
4) Eat properly
- No more junk food to hurt my body system
5) Take care of my hair
- My hair is dry like grass
6) Have clear complexion
- My skin is like shit! Ugly
7) Have a SnowWhite skin
8) Save money for plastic surgery
- Think got to save 10K for the face and another 10K for the body!
9) Fuck those fucking people away
- Throw away those fuck up people in my life
LASTLY
10) Live my own life

Pretty pretty

2006-01-10T22:20:00.000-08:00

What wrong wit plastic? plastic is nice! Do u noe wat is it like to be ugly? u dun! ugly suck! pretty good! so wat if they are plastic or not? u gers are just jealous of plastics ger! so pretty u just cannot handler! Pretty girl dawn yeo~! pple get jealous and start to say her A plastic? u cannot deny dat she is gorgeously! so wat if she is plastic? she is a pretty plastic i can say! so WHO care! she is gorgeously attractive! man like! wo! i luv her too! just go for surgery and be as pretty as her! woowo~~ Y not? not wrong! i also wan to b a pretty plastic is i have the money! sad to say i dun have the money! trying to save NOW! pray pray.......

If plastics can be this successful i dun mind going!

Rather to look plastically pretty dat freaking ugly like mE!

Today suck!

2005-12-27T15:01:00.000-08:00

Tears roll down my cheek!
I can't control my tears!
I hate them!
nobody care!

Human being

2005-12-12T23:31:00.000-08:00

Life short !….
But yet it’s so tough to survive in this sucking world
Man likes beautiful girls
And that’s a bloody fact
Who dun like nice things?
We are just human, I can understand
So when I’m beautiful
I’ll eventually be happy and perfect
Plz contribute all ur money to make mi happy
Contribute all ur money to me for plastic surgery
The more u people hate mi
The more I wan u pple to love and worship me
Make mi drop died gorgeous
I dun care if I’m a bimbo
As long as I’m pretty
BUT NOT a STUPID one

Thanks people!

2005-12-04T15:07:00.000-08:00

On 3dec something happen
it just happen
thanks those who attended
love those who care for me
those who didn't come but give lame excuses
please f**k off! thanks!

++Wo la la++

2005-12-01T23:19:00.000-08:00

Don't you worry about me
I'm fine even without you
When you were gone my heart broke to pieces
Running away no more
Party till dawn just to forget your exit
I don't understand
Some people just need to be ignorant to be please

The Pain

2005-11-04T06:50:00.000-08:00

The pain of losing you tonight
The pain of seeing you again
The pain of seeing your boyfriend dancing with me
The pain of you trying to hurt mi again
The pain of history repeating itself
The pain of not loving me
The pain of waiting for the love to come
The pain of listening to you saying “Maybe love me”
The pain of listening to you saying “Why should I miss you”
The pain of tears dripping because of you
The pain of suffering with pain
The pain of feeling hopeless envelop me
The pain of alone in a dark room with on one around
The pain of waking up to a nightmare without you by my side
The pain of seeing you going through the suffering
The pain of seeing you working hard for me
The pain of devastating anger erupting
The pain of seeing overwhelming love that you have
The pain of waiting you to ask
The pain of loneliness silent
The pain of PAIN ITSELF

Love like that

2005-10-31T04:47:00.000-08:00

Love does not mean that I need to listen to you
Love does not mean that I need to change myself for you
Love does not mean that I need to give you my body
Love does not mean that I need to have s*x with you
Love does not mean that I need to obey to your instructions
Love does not mean that I only treat you the best
Love does not mean that I must share you with others
Love does not mean that I need to suffer while you are having all the FUN
Love does not mean that I need to cry for you
Love does not mean that I need to wait hopelessly for you
Love does not mean that I can be taken for granted
Love does not mean that I can’t speak like a man
Love does not mean that I must behave like a fragile woman
Love does not mean that money is not involve
Love does not mean that you are charming and I’m left alone standing
Love does not mean that you can threaten me as you are popular among woman
If love you is what you had describe
I F**KING NOT LOVING YOU

You can jolly well have fun with all your women and have lots of s*x with them
I don’t need and will not love you!
PS: Girls OUT there if you think you deserve a BETTER man? GO AHEAD!