Adoration of the Goddess

Feel UGLY

I feel UGLY right now, I don't think I can survive through x'mas with this face. I have to skip x'mas I guess..... Did I make the right decision? I'm I wrong? God I beg you to SAVE me!

Happy b'day to Goddess

I hope that the person now I'm with is the RIGHT one.....I really pray HARD..... I wish to be smooth throughout my life on this very day.....

HAPPY B'DAY GODDESS
Thanks those people who gave mi such a SWEET memories.....

D & D

Its been awhile since i have anytings to write about, as my life is really quite boring.....
D&D time....

My first D&D

i reckon...

Now is 3.50am in the middle of the nite, and I CAN’T SLEEP. I guess I have to many things to brood over. I hate myself for being and doing the disgraceful thing I done to them. I can’t help but feel so futile, toward them I always have a sense of guilt. They brought me to this world and watch me suffer and struggle through all this years of my life and yet they get noting in return. I’m not contribution to the family because I can’t find a job. I’m really very uncertain in why I am not employ. Am I not good enough of any job and I literary mean ANY JOB. Or I have lousy/awful/dreadful/horrible/terrible interview skill. Interview skill is so damn important, it so vital that even if u are tremendously lousy worker and can’t help the company in any other way, but eventually you will still be hire since you have excellent interview skill. And that’s about it... First impression does count massively. The norms will always say to find job that u really like. But to be truthful, how many pple are doing what they really like, pursing what they truly have passion in. It’s more or less for they pay. Can passion or love feed you?
Life just manipulates people. Some pple just are gifted. Some just do not need to work in order to feed themselves. As for me I dread to work but I DON’T have a choice as I need the MONEY to survive. I envy people. I get jealous of people. How they are able to live such a fascinating life just make me wonder…………… I really need a change. The people around me impact the way I feel about humans. I get hurt again and again. It okay in the sense, u get hurt u will learnt. They make mi trust no one. When helps is needed, NO one will be there to help. The only ways of helping yourself is by HELPING YOURSELF. Making me independent and always distrusting people. I sort of like building an invisible wall to block myself from others as I’m so frightened by humans. I’m just the not so luck ones to meet the people I met, but I still strongly believe that there are wonderful people out there. I’m just not lucky enough to meet them. I guess I always have to learn things through the HARD way.

So not nice

Goddess: Why are you all always there around me, can u all leave me alone?

Sadness: Sorry! No can’t do~ I will always be there to make things worst.

Suffering: No! Why must I go? I am always here. Since when did I leave you before?

Miserable: leave u alone? NO NEVER...

Worries: I can’t and I will not! Sorry!

Troubles: I don’t want to leave you, my dear.

Goddess: I just wanna make friends with happiness, NOT you all. Can all of you don’t bother me anymore? PLEASE I beg all for you to leave me. Have mercy on me.

Sadness: But I don’t want to leave u alone? I always make you sad and that’s my job! And most of all, I love my job.

Suffering: I always inject pain and I in your life, make u suffer and suffer! Hahaha

Miserable: I’ll breed lots and lots of misery in your life.

Goddess: YOU ALL! GO AND DIE

Goddess: KILL YOU ALL…….. Go to hell……

I dun wanna KNOW

She said my command of English is atrocious
She said when I talk I’m gusting for words
Feel kind of sad and depress
I know I have Terrible ENGLISH
I don’t need you to slap it in my FACE!

so SORRY!

I’m said something that I should NOT have say today!
I SORRY in what I said today!
GOD please forgives me!

BABE I came across in the BLOG world:

Isst she SEXY? her name is SEXY?